Journey continues

 Dear diary… lol

It just came into my head. Practicing “penning” my thoughts haha!

It’s been a while since my last entry and so much has happened. We had a global pandemic which caused the whole world to have a lock down. Well most countries did. There were a few that did not. In 2021 we resigned from a church group we were a part of for about 20 years (me and hubby combined). In 2022 we moved out of our house that we had been living in for 14 years and moved to another province. And now we have been here in Mpumalanga for nearly 3 years.

Since we resigned from the church group in 2021 we haven’t joined another group. Things happened there that made me think about and question things that I had always just accepted. I have been searching for truth and unlearning some things I had learned. It has been a wonderful time of healing and rediscovery. In the first 2-3 years I constantly thought about when Yahuah led the Israelites out of Egypt into the wilderness. When I thought about it I saw how He brought them into a place where they could be still and heal and become whole again. They were out from under the oppression and rule of Egypt. They could just be and know who their God is. This is what it has been like for me. To come out from under control and manipulation and just be. To learn who Yahuah is for myself and to learn who I am in Him.

I long to worship Yahuah and Yahushua with other true worshippers, but I am hesitant to join in anywhere. I need to be fully convinced and my understanding enlightened and established concerning these things. 

I have asked myself this question a few times, what was Yahushua’s intent for His ‘church’? How did He actually want it to be? I am very sure that the way a lot of it is today is not the way it is suppose to be. It is full of greed, manipulation, control, and full of evil deeds. And I am also sure that there has to be assemblies of people that are gathering together in truth.

I am searching for truth, for the Truth. I am not willing to just accept what man says anymore.